I have to be honest: I have not been diligent with my workout routine since I got sick last November. My life has been a roller-coaster of ups, downs, doctor visits, new medicines, etc. All of this made it hard to find time and energy to workout. Despite everything, though, I was still going to the gym twice a week and I practiced yoga three to four times a week. This coupled with walking or biking to work kept me in acceptable shape. I was not as muscular as I used to be, but my clothing still fit.
After this last cycle and all the “resting” (i.e. sitting on my ass) my body has taken a dive for the worst. I went to the gym today after 4 weeks doing nothing but working at a desk and resting I was appalled by what I saw.
First, the scale informed me that I am now 10 pounds heavier than when I got married (when I was in the best shape of my life). Then I turned my attention to my weight routine and was HORRIFIED to I have lost a lot of strength. I huffed and puffed through my routine and at the end of 45 minutes was sweaty and stressed. What happened to me?
Not only are my pants tight, but my body is physically weaker than it was two months ago.
If I get pregnant I want to be that fit pregnant lady. I want to ride my bike. I want to work out. I want to do prenatal yoga. I want to be so strong that when it comes time to birth I can pop the baby right out. As of today, this is not looking feasible.
So I’m taking this as my Call to Action. I have a month off. I need to get myself in fighting shape again so I can handle this IVF cycle with strength and grace. I need to feel good about myself so I can effectively manage the hormones. In order to this, I am embarking on “Operation Take Back My Pants.”
Sadly, I’m still not allowed to do yoga, and likely can’t return to it until I am either pregnant or quit TTC which means I am going to have to build strength in other ways. Here is my plan so far:
- Weight training three times a week, starting light and building back up over the course of five sessions.
- Walk to and from work 3 times a week.
- Fertility yoga 1 time a week (the only yoga I am allowed to do b/c it is all based on lying around)
- 10 mile or longer bike ride on Saturday mornings
As for nutrition, I’m eager to read my new book on PCOS. From what I can tell it focuses on clean eating with low/no sugar and low carbohydrates. I think this will help me tone back up, too. I’ll share my eating plan once I have finished the book.
Also, despite the 10 pounds and weakness I am pleased to report that I have not cried once today. I was even able to IM with a friend and be my old feisty self. At no time during the conversation did I bring up my vagina, ovaries or infertility. It was a nice change. I hope it sticks around for a while.
Now I’m off to walk home and start reading my PCOS book!