I don’t know what I expected infertility treatments to be like. I expected some hormonal swings. I expected to be bloated, maybe gain a few pounds. I expected to be uncomfortable at times and to suffer the occasional yeast infection.
I was not, however, prepared for the acne.
I’m lucky in that my experience with acne is pretty limited. Each month while on birth control I would get the obligatory pimply visitor on my chin for a few days before my period, but that was about it. I know, I’m a bitch, right? I was lucky to have good skin for years.
This lucky streak seems to have run out since we started TTC. This morning I counted the visitors taking up residence on my super pale face – 13. Thirteen pimples have congregated on my chin, jaw line, one in my eyebrow and, this is super gross, one on my neck.
This morning I stood in front of the mirror after showering and stared at myself. My belly is soft and pooches out. My boobs still hurt to the touch. My face is rounder and my high cheekbones seem to be sagging under the weight of TTC stress. And then there are the zits.
The zits are the icing on the shit cake. My body looks crappy; I don’t have a baby in me and now, zits.
I put away my wonderful Aveda Green Science face wash (also known as my wrinkles-be-gone wash) and replaced it with a bottle of acne wash this morning. Over lunch today I will order a new pack of brushes for my Clarisonic Mia (which is a total yuppie purchase but SO worth it). While at work I’m trying to keep my hands AWAY from the face invaders, even though all I want to do is claw at them until they flake off in my hand and leave bloody pools in their wake (I know, I is sexy, right?)
Anyone else having this problem? Have you found a solution? Preferably one that does not require ordering things from a made-for TV advertisement or spending $90 a month?