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Crack, Cat Commodes and Progress on the IVF Front

10/14/2011

Belle

My Maine Coon, Yum Yum, in the laundry hamper. She is the most particular about her commode and has her own private pooping area upstairs. Go ahead, you can call me Cat Lady.

Crack

I love Gonal-F. I feel so amazing when I’m on it. I’m full of energy, super cheerful and don’t cry. I would rate right up there with Valium, which I also adore.

Last night was my first shot and, while I still feel ill when I smell the alochol pads, I’m ok with it. I’m going to give this cycle a good “college try,” while not beating myself up over every little thing I might do wrong. During the last cycle I was SO CAREFUL with everything. I would not scoop the cat boxes, exercise, eat anything that was not organic and obsessively washed,would not scrub the floor, etc. etc. etc. I was so terrified of distrubing the eggs and affecting implantation that I drove myself, and my husband, crazy.

And I still got a BFN.

This cycle, I’m going to try and live life normally. Sure, after my IUI I will relax for the evening. Sure I won’t down two glasses of wine with dinner and I don’t think this is the time for me to start running or playing football. That said, if I want half a glass of wine this weekend, I’m going to have it. If I want a brisk walk, I will take it.

Cat Commodes

Today I woke up early and cleaned the cat commodes (i.e. litter boxes) and swept and moped the basement floor  so they have a pristine pooping area while we are gone (I’m a good cat mommy and worry about their commodes not being all shiny and clean)*. It felt good to be productive this morning and not worry obsess about eggs. It felt good to remember that a BFP this cycle would be AWESOME and that a BFN would be FINE. I have choices, I have options, I have time. This should be my mantra for the next four weeks.

Progress

After yesterday’s post I decided it is time to be proactive. I’m done wallowing in the “why me” and am ready to actively pursue my baby from all fronts. I phoned the three highest rated IVF clinics in surrounding areas and found one in Louisville with good success rates that has a Shared Risk Program. This clinic will also work with Dr. Hope and let him do some of the monitoring locally. They offer two variations of shared risk: one with monitoring one without. Assuming Dr. Hope is comfortable with this arrangement, I would pay him out of pocket to monitor and then the IVF clinic would preform the retrieval/transfer under their Shared Risk Program.

I am feeling so good about this arrangement and really hope that Dr. Hope will be on board. This would also make it easier for him to be my doctor once I’m pregnant as I can think of no one else I would rather deliver my baby. I go in on Monday afternoon for a follicle scan and to chat with him about this arrangement and promise to report back as soon as I’m done.

Now I need to finish up at the office so I can leave early and not have to rush to the airport! I promise photos and stories from my weekend in PA next week!

Notes

* Now, before some mean person chimes in on how having cat will kill my baby please note: I wear gloves when I do cat box duty (cause turds are gross, y’all!) and if I’m changing out all the litter and stirring up liter dust I wear a mask. Ultimately, though,  I don’t think scooping a few turds and moping up the litter crusties is going to kill my baby and if it does I’m probably not cut out to be a mommy.

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  1. October 14, 2011

    So glad to see you are feeling better! Have a wonderful weekend!

  2. October 14, 2011

    It sounds like you are taking charge of things the best way you can and leaving the obsessing out of the picture. Good job! I sure hope that Dr. Hope is on board with your plan, it sounds like a good one. Actually, scratch that I hope you get a BFP so you don’t even need that plan. Enjoy the weekend!

  3. Mo #
    October 15, 2011

    I’m really happy you’re feeling better!
    As hard as it is sometimes, the healthiest thing we can do is not put our life on hold while going through all of this. I hope you can do that. No – I know you can! xoxo

  4. October 15, 2011

    Glad you are feeling better. You should be able to live life normally and do the things (well most things 😉 ) that you want to do. Good luck I hope it all goes well!

  5. October 16, 2011

    You go girl… making solid plans often helps put my mind at ease.. I hope it does for you as well! Awesome plan on the shared risk program!

  6. October 19, 2011

    Stalking you right back =) and I’m hooked. Here’s hope for lucky number two, know the heartbreak of a failed ivf-cycle. Not fair.

    And eggs! this is the third place I hear that. Intriguing indeed.

  7. October 19, 2011

    Belle, thank you for the kind words you left on my blog. I really appreciate it. I’m still trying to get my head around things. It hasn’t been easy, but each day gets easier.
    I’m sorry your last IVF cycle resulted in a BFN. I remember doing that during IUI treatment, forgoing exercise, freaking out about cleaning the cat box, all futile attempts to keep the eggies safe.
    I wouldn’t worry about the cat poops. You seem really careful to have thought ahead with the gloves and mask.

    I have a “Crazy Cat Lady” mug. I used it with pride 🙂 Your cat is beautiful.

    • October 19, 2011

      Ah, thanks for the cat compliment. The Yums is special. 🙂 I saw the pictures of your cat on the blog after I left my comment! Also a beautiful furbaby! Thank God for pets during all this. If I didn’t have something warm and soft to hug some nights I might turn to cradling large squash. And then Mr. Husband might commit me for sure!

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