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CD40

11/18/2011

Belle

I did a Google image search on "POAS" to try and find an image of a silly pee stick to use with this post. Instead tons of photos of the Poas volcano popped up. As I skimmed through the photos I realized I HAD BEEN THERE! Above is a a photo I took while visiting the Poas Volcano on my honeymoon to Costa Rica. A sign from the heavens? Probably not, but it makes a good caption!

 

Last night I had a VERY vivid dream about having a baby (pushed it out after only 3 pushes so it was vivid, but unrealistic!) and then breastfeeding it. It was an amazing start to a dream but then it went down hill. In this dream I kept getting distracted by my old life and forgetting about the baby. I would drift off to have a glass of wine with an old girlfriend and then midway through remember, “Oh Shit! I have a baby!” and I’d go back to find the baby somewhere strange like sitting in the living room floor of my old apartment in  Birmingham, looking all dejected and skinny. Dream Belle was a bad Mommy.

This dream inspires and scares me. Is the dream a sign that this is the month? Is dream me telling real me that I would be a bad mother? The rational me knows that neither are true while the irrational me wants to run to pee on a stick and then hide from the pregnancy, as surely I will be an unfit mother.

Today is CD40. This mornings’ HPT was negative.

I did some online reading to gauge the probability that I could still be pregnant this cycle.  I triggered two weeks ago today, which puts actual ovulation sometime around the 5th or 6th of November. AmericanPregnancy.org says that implantation can take up to 12 days post ovulation, which would mean that implantation could still occur today.

According to Pee On A Stick.com it can take two to four days after implantation to receive a positive HPT. I guess this means that testing on Monday will give me the most accurate information. This seems like it is taking a lot longer than other positive HPTs I have read about. I have seen some women get them as early as 8 days past ovulation. All of this makes me wonder: how great are the chances that I am pregnant this late in the cycle?

As far as symptoms, I don’t have any other than a slew of pimples (boo, hiss) and bloating, and lord have mercy I’m bloated. My pants are tight, my face is a puffy and even the girls, who are normally barely there, are swollen. Nothing hurts, though, and my mind is surprisingly stable considering all the hell the family is going through right now.

So what do you all think? What has your experience been with early testing and early pregnancy symptoms?

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  1. Mo #
    November 18, 2011

    well, I’m not one to talk because I’m 3 losses in and so I only know results for ectopics and my current shmembryo, and we’re not sure what’s up with that yet.
    HOWEVER, I am obsessive about HPT accuracy.
    So – it’s not only about how many DPO you are, but how sensitive your pee stick is. If you’ve got a run of the mill pee stick, than a BFN makes sense this early even if you have implanted. If it’s early detection, you can POAS as early as 1-2 days after implantation and get a BFP.
    I think if I were in your position I would probably POAS every morning until I got a BFP or AF showed up.
    But if you’re sane, unlike me, definitely wait until monday to test again.
    Good luck!!

  2. robin #
    November 18, 2011

    I have those “oh I forgot I had a baby” dreams, except for me it’s usually pets, but it’s the same type of dream. It doesn’t mean you’d be a bad mother. I don’t know what it means, though. I think it is an anxiety dream – I mean, it definitely creates anxiety, so I imagine that’s where it comes from, too.

    One of the times I really thought I might be pregnant I was having really vivid pregnancy dreams. I could feel the baby kick, that’s how vivid it was (I have never felt a baby kick before, not even from the outside, so I have no idea what it would actually feel like). I don’t know what that dream means either.

    So… in conclusion, I have had those dreams, and have no insight into them whatsoever! Good luck on your peeing 🙂

  3. November 19, 2011

    I have a love/hate with poas. The one time I did have 2 lines I had zero symptoms and lost the baby. So, I kind wished I didn’t poas. But, before IUIs, I was never able to stop myself. Ugh.

  4. November 20, 2011

    I can never give up hoping. Here I am, CD 65, BFNs galore, still wanting to cross my fingers.

    But I have so much more hope for you.

  5. November 21, 2011

    If only vivid dreams was as accurate as a positive hpt! To be honest I didn’t have any early signs and it took a good two weeks in for me to really feel them. Everyone is different, some have really early ones and some feel much less throughout the whole thing. Really hope you don’t need that bottle of wine!

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