First, thanks for all your sweet encouragement yesterday. This is such an amazing community.
A quick update as I’m about to hit the road to visit a client – I had my baseline this morning. Wow, this clinic is the most efficient place ever. I walked in at 8 a.m. and out at 8:30! The scan looks good. No cysts, lots of tiny follies waiting to grow and my lining is super thin, which explains the total lack of a period. Dr. A said that based on how things look he expects my e2 levels to come back nice and suppressed, too. Assuming they don’t call and tell me otherwise, I am to begin 150 iu of Gonal-F tonight.
I’m excited and terrified. Last night I cried to Mr. Husband for the first time about this. I’m just so scared that it won’t work, or worse, that it will work but we’ll lose the baby. There are so many women right now who have either lost or are at extremely high risk of losing their baby or babies. My heart aches for them and my mind braces for the same to happen to me. Which is not rational. There are risks with everything, there is always a chance of failure. Dwelling on this chance will get me no where but into a psych ward!
Today I’m traveling to North Kentucky to conduct a photo shoot and interview with a client success story. I’m excited to escape my desk and do what I went to school to do – interview. I get to do this so rarely in this job. I’m looking forward to the change of pace. I’ll post more tonight or tomorrow.