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Baby-Crazed Blogger Seeks Input From Fellow IFers



I sure do feel crazy today. All I can think about between random bouts of crying is having a baby. Turns out me and Ortho Tri-Cyclen don’t get along well.

During the past week I have been experiencing what I call THE RAGE. It must be in all caps because it is really that bad. I talked to my acupuncturist about it and when she stuck me in the ear and I jumped and said “Ouch!” she stepped away from the table and asked if THE RAGE was going to come get her. We dissolved in giggles and I was ok…. till I got home and found dirty dishes and then THE RAGE came back again.

It is this constant internal war between rational, fun, bubbly Belle and THE RAGE. I am always aware that THE RAGE is flaring but 100% incapable of stopping it. It’s a tough spot to be in. It is even tougher for poor Mr. Husband.

In case THE RAGE was not fun enough, yesterday my uterus decided to throw some crazy spotting into the mix. Nothing too alarming, just occasional bursts of gnarly old blood. I have officially resigned myself from buying any expensive panties until this delightful infertility journey is over. This morning I woke up with THE RAGE and decided an early morning visit to the gym would be good for my mental well-being and to keep me from killing my coworkers. Between dead lifts and weighted squats I felt a WHOOSH and then THE RAGE returned. “OMG! Does this have to happen mid workout?!” I yelled silently to myself. Off I ran to the bathroom, thankful that I wore dark shorts. And sure enough, there was a nice bright red disaster complete with uterine cramping.

Convinced my period was starting three weeks too early (I have to take continuous birth control till March 24 for my FET), I immediately fell apart. In my crazy little brain red spotting = period. Period = no FET. No FET = no baby ever. And no baby ever = messy cry-fest in the gym bathroom. Again I pulled myself together, washed up and then returned to my workout, vowing to call Dr. A when I got to work.

Dr. A’s nurse phoned back this afternoon explaining that this was normal considering the type of birth control I’m on and that it is just going to be a hassle for the next few weeks. If it was really bothering me, I could force the bleeding to stop by taking two birth control pills at a time for three days to settle things down. But, she warned me, this will put a lot of hormones in me at once and might make me feel a little crazy.

So, my questions for you all: Have you ever doubled your pills to control breakthrough bleeding? If so, how crazy is the crazy? Should Mr. Husband pack up shop and go stay somewhere else for the next three days? Or should I just buy stock in Instead Soft Cups and hunker down for the long haul? As always, your opinions are greatly appreciated!

My photo post will come this evening. THE RAGE prevented me from taking pictures this morning.

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  1. March 9, 2012

    Ortho tricyclen gave me both rage and baby crazy. It was disturbing because I started taking it when I was 18 for the purpose of preventing pregnancy, and I had pregnant dreams constantly. But also The Rage is something I live with pretty much constantly, this is my hormonal make up. Yay.

    I didn’t get breakthrough bleeding on the pill BUT I am cautioning you against taking two at a time. I did that because I sometimes forgot to take it and holy hell the nausea. I mean it was nausea like what I’m experiencing right now. Any day I double dosed I was moaning on the couch. It’s part of why I switched to the nuva ring for contraception because I couldn’t screw it up and then have to take double doses and then feel like shiz. I would buy some cups (or a diva cup) and hunker down.. unfortunately. 😦 Well, I don’t know, I guess it depends on which is worse for you – nausea or bleeding!

    • March 9, 2012

      Oh my gosh, THANK YOU for this input! I was going to take two pills tonight. Tomorrow morning at 7 a.m. I have a 20 mile bike ride, then I’m taking an afternoon hike with Mr. Husband and our friends. Nausea is not welcome during any of this! Perhaps I’ll hunker down for a few more days and if it gets to the point I can no longer stand it I’ll try a night of doubling. Do you like your Diva Cup? I have heard the suctioning is sort of, um, freaky…

      • March 9, 2012

        I LOVE the Diva Cup. The suctioning was weird the first couple of times but after a few uses I not only got used to it, I started to feel secure when I felt that feeling because that meant the seal was air tight. I had to cut the “handle” completely off, though, because it kept sticking out and hurting my lady parts. Just remember to get it out you have to squeeze it to break the seal before you pull it – if you pull it without doing that well I don’t know, it’s going to be pretty uncomfortable!

        The best thing about it is that I bought mine almost 4 years ago and haven’t had to buy tampons since. I still have light liners but otherwise I don’t spend money on period supplies. If you do use it just make sure you wash it every time you take it out (there’s a “diva wash” you can buy).

        Wow it sounds like you have an AWESOME day planned tomorrow!!!

  2. March 9, 2012

    I have doubled up, 1 in the morning and 1 at night (12 hours) and it did work. However, I personally got even more crampy and bloated than normal. Also i was already so crazy i cont know if i got worse. Ask my husband =)
    As far as THE RAGE, I got that from Loestrin FE along with disgusting, worse than I ever had in my life acne. It is the only time in my life BC has done that to me. I switched to another brand and THE RAGE went away. If you have
    to be on it for a while maybe you could ask to switch? I didn’t even have to be on it that long but my docs were very accommodating.
    I actually just started lybrel, another brand and I just realized I’ve been spotting for a while since my period ended. Maybe I’ll double up
    with you… I’m out of instead cups and don’t
    want to buy more!!

    • March 9, 2012

      The more crazy the merrier! I plan to take my first extra pill on Sunday morning so I can make it through my ride and hike tomorrow! Let me know if you join me in the crazy. We can chart our irrational behavior together 😉

  3. Peg #
    March 9, 2012

    I never took that type of bc but when my first bout of hyperplasia was in full swing I would have similar problems with bleeding. One time I got into the car and had a sudden gush of blood and clots – soaked my jeans right through right down to my kneesa. I was an hour from home with mo change of clothes. I had to I and buy jeans and underwear and then try to clean up in a Walmart barroom – one of my more shining moments. It was pure hell! I never knew when it was going to hit.

    Speaking of rage though, I have serious anger issues going on now. I snap at a monent’s notice. I am thinking of nominating my husband for sainthood!

  4. March 9, 2012

    I have had breakthrough bleeding (which never affected my FET timeline btw) with the pill, actually did this time on my successful cycle too now that I think about it. I have never doubled up though, just dealt with it as it came.
    As for the rage….ugh, hormones :(. There is no answer. My solution was always to just tell my husband “I’m psycho and bitchy and I don’t know why….and I am sorry but do whatever the F I say!!!”

  5. March 9, 2012

    Eight years of BCP and no breakthrough bleeding aside from a spot here and there when switching brands. I have taken two Ortho Tri-Cyclen at a time more than once, after forgetting a pill, with no ill effects. But THE RAGE, yeah, that I know. I had a good bout with it this afternoon. I hope things get better!

  6. March 9, 2012

    I actually do not have any advice because I’ve never been in that situation but I agree that if it is gonna drive you crazy maybe you should go ahead and do it, although if it is gonna MAKE you crazy then I don’t know. Pretty much I am no help what so ever. I fail.

    But I understand THE RAGE. THE RAGE sucks the big one.

  7. March 9, 2012

    I respond the same way to Ortho Tri-Cyclen. I believe if I took more than one in a twenty-four hour period I would tear my own face off. I instituted a no talking policy after 7pm with my husband because I was so out of control – he simply could not say or do anything that did not completely piss me off. If I remember correctly he described me to our RE as a tiger on fire. I would purchase a ton of instead cups and spend as much time as possible alternating between isolating and going to the gym. I would also suggest staying as far away from FB as possible. Good luck and God speed!

    • March 9, 2012

      Lol! Girl, you make me feel so much better! We have an informal no talking in the evening policy lately, too 🙂 We each sit on the couch with our laptops out and bang away on blogs (me) or math (him.) Sort of sad, sort of romantic… 🙂

  8. March 9, 2012

    Ugh! I have no words of wisdom as I haven’t experienced this before but sending you big hugs! But not big bear hugs as we wouldn’t want to aggravate THE RAGE!! 🙂 Hang in there girlie!! xoxo

  9. March 9, 2012

    Ah yes, I’m all too familiar with The Rage, which is why I avoid birth control pills at all cost (low estrogen or not, I get “The Dumb” and my brain doesn’t work right. However, by avoiding bcp, The Rage and The Dumb turn into The Weepies *sigh*

    I’ve never doubled up on bcp, but I can imagine that it would increase The Rage’s influence.

    Good luck!

    • March 9, 2012

      Good luck with whatever you decide to do 🙂

    • March 9, 2012

      Oh my gosh, The Dumb has also hit me several times. I was thinking I was just run down, but maybe it is also the birth control.

  10. March 9, 2012

    Man I get that and I’m not even on birth control! ( sorry im no help)

  11. March 9, 2012

    I am so sorry 😦 I never had problems on BCPs, just headaches. But I would always skip the placebos and keep taking only active pills to never get a period. It was awesome. Breakthrough bleeding is always confusing.

    Are you not taking Lupron? We are going to be kind of close for our FET’s. Mine should be the first week of April.

  12. March 9, 2012

    Cracking me up! I’m sorry about THE RAGE, but it’s funny to read about mostly because I can totally relate. Except lately I should label myself THE WEEP because I can’t hold my sad emotions at bay. Ahhh IF, you’re so fun.

  13. March 9, 2012

    I am so sorry that THE RAGE has come to visit your house. Birth control makes me homocidal as well, though Paul thinks it’s hysterical. He’s lucky that he lived to see our FET, all things considered. There’ nothing good to say except that it just plain sucks. I hope that next few weeks fly by and you are able to keep the evil witch at bay!

  14. March 9, 2012

    I have nothing here (can’t take BC because of my blood disease) but I just have to say how much I LURVE softcups. I haven’t tried the diva cup bec. I do love being able to toss the cup each time instead of cleaning it… but never say never!

    • March 9, 2012

      They have changed my life and, honestly, I owe it 100% to you! I was so scared to shove that huge thing up there until your encouragement!!

  15. March 10, 2012

    OMG! Ortho made me 100% crazy. I don’t know how my husband stayed with me while I was on it. Seriously. The Rage is no joke. I feel for you! I’ve never had to double up on bcp’s so I have any rec’s for you but I wish you and your husband the best!

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