Lonely and hormonal. It’s a dangerous combination.
Mr. Husband flew out yesterday morning for a week-long math conference in Minnesota. I cried while taking him to the airport. I cried while photographing ducks and herons (pictures to come later this week!), I cried while shopping for new pillows and I cried when my carrot cake did not come out as planned. In short, I’m a big lonely and hormonal mess.
I know these conferences are really important for Mr. Husband’s work and job hunt but my God, why did it have to land during the TWW? He’ll return Friday at noon. My beta test is Thursday meaning I’ll be alone when I get the results. I’m not quite sure how to handle this.
Today is 6dp5dt (like for real this time) and I don’t feel pregnant. Thanks to thrice daily progesterone I’m bloated and my pants are bordering on obscenely tight. I’ve had occasional pinching on the right side of my lower abdomen, but I attribute that to irritated intestines from the ridonkulous amount of gas that I have had. This is about to be TMI… The occasional RBF (really big fart) feels good. It is a welcome release of pent-up hot air that leaves me feeling lighter and refreshed. Imagine these RBF’s every time you bend down, twist or cough. It is alarming and becoming uncomfortable. I’m tired of farting.
I’m also just plain old tired, but I attribute this to the progesterone. Is it sad that I welcome the exhaustion that progesterone brings because it helps me sleep despite all the worrying? What else can I complain about? Oh, itching. I have been unbelievably itchy. I usually get itchy right before my period starts so I chalk this extra itchy up to a mondo period of doom on the horizon.
I feel like you deserve some sort of prize for making it this far into my bitch session about being lonely, hormonal and likely not pregnant. How about a sneak peek at some of the photos I took yesterday? Since I was up at the crack of dawn to take Mr. Husband to the airport, I decided to visit the geese and ducks at one of my favorite duck-spotting parks. Much to my delight there was a pair of herons fishing in the lake and I was able to get a few awesome photos of them! Here is my favorite from the day.
I must note that the only photo shopping I did on this was to tweak the levels ever so slightly to bring out feather definition.
Ok, and one more because I can’t neglect my duck friends. I was practicing the Aperture Priority mode for this shot.
Don’t you just want to hug that cutie? Sigh, just looking at sweet ducks and noble birds makes me feel better.