I am blown away by all the sweet comments from my earlier post. I feel so loved and supported, even though I still have not had an In Real Life hug. Thank you all so much. You have no idea how calm your comments have kept me.
Don’t judge, but I carried that used pee stick everywhere with me today. I sat it on my desk where I could see it, but people stopping by my office could not. When I went out on assignment I slipped it into my camera bag. When I went to run errands I had it in my purse. I felt better knowing it was there and any time I had a moment of doubt, I would sneak a peek at the two lovely lines.
I have been trying to keep myself busy and in a positive head space tonight. After work I went to the dreaded Walmart and bought a box of digital HPTs (5 tests for under $20 bucks!) and another box of First Response HPTs. I have resisted taking one tonight as I know it is still really early and I probably need my most potent, first thing in the morning pee.
I took a nice slow four mile walk in the arboretum and watched parents play with their kids and silently talked to Pip, telling him how I promise to take him outside every day. It was good to stretch my legs, albeit a far cry from my usual calorie burning power walk. If Pip stays, I am determined to walk every single day to keep us both healthy.
Once home I did some dishes, made a single serving microwave cake (Holy Cow ladies, this is every hormonal woman’s dream! I’ll post the recipe tomorrow night, promise!) and had some left over homemade Thai food with brown rice, tofu and lots of veggies. I decided my sweet cats needed a special dinner to mark the good news so I dished up some extra stinky cat food and garnished it with kibble pieces. The meal was much enjoyed and now I have four sacked out kitties with full bellies.
Right now I’m watching back-to-back episodes of Big Bang Theory and reading about how an embryo grows week by week. I have not let myself really look at this stuff before and it is absolutely amazing. I find this all a lot less scary when I look at it from a scientific standpoint and break things down 7 days at a time.
Just two more sleeps till test day.