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What was I thinking coming into work today? Like I’m really going to get anything done…

Ultrasound to check for baby and heartbeat at 2:45 p.m. this afternoon. I’m a nervous wreck complete with anxiety shits AND a bad hair day. I am having a hard time moving forward with work this morning because of all my fears. Because misery loves her some company, I’m going to list the fears here.

  1. My “baby” is a mole. I’m terrified of a molar pregnancy and even though they are rare, I’m convinced that my crazy-ass body is going to produce one.
  2. My “baby” has no heartbeat.
  3. My “baby” is nothing more than an empty sack.
  4. My “baby” is in the wrong place like my right tube which is the area I get random stabbing pains.
  5. My “baby” and sack and all that jazz will be nowhere to be seen and the doctor will think I’m cray-cray.

My parents have been here all weekend. It was nice to have their distraction and support. This morning my Dad walked the 3 miles to work with me, and now is running home via my six-mile route. They will pick me up at 2 and off to Dr. A’s we’ll go. Please be good news. Please grow and thrive Pip. Please make me at least a little bit barfy so I know you are there.

Also, please take a minute to share some love and support with Her Royal Fabulousness who is having her first ultrasound this morning. Sending you lots of love, pretty lady!



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  1. May 14, 2012

    I have every confidence that everything is wonderful, and I look forward to at least 32 weeks of pregnancy updates! I can’t wait to hear how it goes!!

  2. May 14, 2012

    What is a molar pregnancy??

    Good luck this afternoon!

  3. May 14, 2012

    I share all your worries. The good thing is that these are all very unlikely, and you’ll no for sure very soon. Well, not very soon when you’re counting the seconds, but soon.

    I’ll be thinking of you all day today, and sending lots of good vibes Pip’s way. Good luck!

    • May 14, 2012

      no…or know. My brain has ceased working. Ugh.

  4. May 14, 2012

    I get like this before EVERY ULTRASOUND. It has gotten somewhat easier the longer the pregnancy has lasted but definitely the early ultrasounds made me so nervous I was cold sweating and clammy. I’m thinking of you today, sending good thoughts for a heartbeat and all the things you’re supposed to see (and none of the things you’re not)!!!

  5. May 14, 2012

    Sending you lots of love and support today! Don’t worry about working–it will still be there tomorrow.

  6. May 14, 2012

    I’ll be thinking about you!

  7. EmHart #
    May 14, 2012

    I am thinking of you and will be checking back in this evening for your update. Lots of love x x x

  8. May 14, 2012

    Sending love to you too. And hoping for more good news and joy very soon!

  9. May 14, 2012

    Hoping the anxiety shits leave you and your hair looks beautiful for the vagina wand! Can’t wait to see a pic!

  10. May 14, 2012

    FX Belle.. look how far you have come from our first posts on FF!

  11. Mo #
    May 14, 2012

    ahh! Now I’m all on-edge. 🙂

    I’m sure everything will be fine. You’d better update as soon as you know!

  12. May 14, 2012

    Thinking of you! Can’t wait for your update later 🙂

  13. May 14, 2012

    Anxiously waiting to hear about you seeing Pip for the first time!

  14. May 14, 2012

    Quick while I wait for my u/s and am breaking from my tech break! Pip will be great, heartbeat and all. No way he’s a molar or you’d have crazy thousands for betas, yours was dead on perfect. I can’t wait to hear 🙂 and no ectopic, you wouldn’t have made it this far!!!! Good luck!!!! Xo

  15. May 15, 2012

    Thinking of you and can’t wait for a great update!

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