Last Friday Dr. A’s office called to tell me the results of the karyotype – Trisomy 15. The report stated that three cells were grown in culture and that “abnormalities incompatible with life were found.”
Pip had a third 15th chromosome, which would have resulted in his or her demise no matter what I did. I did not kill my baby. I did not poop so hard I stopped my child’s heart. My immune system did not wage war on Pip. Pip was broken when he or she started out in the petri dish all the way back in February.
I feel so cheated. Pip was my best embryo; a perfect 5AA embryo. How could such a perfect embryo be so broken? Will all my other embryos be broken? I have read of women who have miscarriage after miscarriage before they finally get their take home baby. I don’t know how these women do it. I’ve had one loss and am already considering throwing in the towel. My brief, seven-week pregnancy has left me crushed, devastated and empty.
I have found very little information on T15. I have learned that:
- Trisomy 15 is extremely rare.
- Babies with T15 do not survive.
- T15 can be a random defect or a problem with either the mother or father’s genes.
- There are two types of T15: complete trisomy and mosaic trisomy. Pip’s report did not specify what kind of trisomy he or she had. I’m assuming it is hard to determine if only 3 cells were examined.
In a few weeks or months, whenever my cycle returns, I will see Dr. A and ask for more information. I need to know if we should test ourselves. I need to know if we should have our embryos tested before they are transferred. I need to know what the probability is that this will happen again. I need some reassurance that we still have a decent chance to have a child.
In the meantime, I would love to find someone who has had a loss due to T15. I need more information and feel the best way to find this information is through someone who has been here before. If any of you all know of someone with a T15 loss who would want to talk to me, please put us in touch!
I actually have some good news but am going to wait a few more days before I share. It has been so long since we have had good news that I feel I should wait before announcing, just to make sure it will stick. And no, it is not another pregnancy announcement. We all know that if I were pregnant you would be bombarded by photos of pee sticks. 🙂