I have spent a lot of time staring at myself in the mirror, hating the way my softness folds over my waist band, hating the post-miscarriage deflated boobies, hating the way my rump sags. Even Mr. Husband has admitted I am gaining weight.
Last night I sucked it up and talked to my acupuncturist, K. I wore my gym shorts and showed her how tight they have become. First we discussed my diet. I have been eating well since the miscarriage – minimal sugars, whole grains, fresh fruits and veggies, healthy fats, etc. I have been lifting weights three times a week, going to yoga once or twice a week and doing some form of cardio (walking or biking) every day. According to all of this, I should be losing weight. But I’m not. I actually gained another two pounds this week. Freaking alarming.
K suggested that some of the now 12 pounds is likely water weight from the crazy post-miscarriage hormones, the rest though, is definitely fat. Only fat wiggles and jiggles like that on a behind.
We started with a special treatment to help my metabolic system – i.e. lots of needles in the back and one in each love handle, which was embarrassing. Its one thing to pinch your own muffin, it is another to pay someone to pinch your muffin! After about 10 minutes those needles were removed and several hard and fast points were done in my feet to help with water retention. We finished with points in my ears to relax and ground me. It was a good treatment and I look forward to a repeat next week!
Then we got down to business about what I can do on my own. K instructed me to maintain my current exercise regime, and add an additional 30 minute walk in after dinner each night. Totally doable!
She also instructed me to cut way back on carbs and to avoid all added sugar including agave nectar. To help with the bloat she suggests reducing sodium and has ordered some herbs that target shedding water weight. These will arrive on Thursday and Mr. Husband can pick them up for me along with herbs for his lingering bike wreck injury (poor guy).
I am choosing to look at this as getting myself baby-ready, not as trying to shed pounds. I am taking the summer off from IVF/FET creating three glorious months to get myself into fighting shape for what will hopefully be a genetically normal pregnancy. I want to be strong, vibrant and full of energy. I want to rock my way through my next transfer, blaze through 9 months of pregnancy and then pop out a baby with minimal medical intervention and maximal awesomeness.
My fabulous health-nut cousin swears by green drinks, blending up anything and everything with leaves including weeds from her yard. I tried the green smoothie thing for a while, but honestly, it was really expensive and required trips to the grocery store every couple of days. I just don’t have time or money for that. Sunny at Cease and Decyst has written about her journey to better health and the Green Vibrance Drink from Hell she
tortures herself with drinks. Curious, I did some research and think this is one green drink that I might be able to chug several times a day. It seriously can’t be any worse than chugging Milk of Magnesia, which tastes an awful lot like the way retirement homes smell. I ordered a family sized jug of this green drink powder and am committing to finishing it in a timely manner. These greens will not have died in vain, I promise.
It feels good to be taking charge of my health. I hope that by being in great shape come August/September I will be able so sail through the next transfer with less of the Cranky Infertile Crazies and more of the I’m a kick-ass, hardcore woman who won’t take shit from these PIO shots mentality I know I have.
How are all my fellow infertiles who are still in the trenches preparing themselves for their next round with ART? Any tips to help choke down green drinks? Any super awesome workout routines that you want to share?