Today’s pee stick was also negative. I’m done peeing on things. If a positive showed up at this point it would very likely end in miscarriage. A failed cycle is hard enough. Another failed pregnancy I think would push me over the edge.
This morning I had a little retail therapy. I need new clothing like I need another hole in my head. However, ordering a few new fall pieces really made me feel sunnier. No baby this cycle means I’m cleared to buy fall clothes. Even if we get pregnant in October with a baby that is not going to crap out on me, fall will be long gone by the time I start to outgrow things. Want to see what I ordered? Probably not but I’m sharing anyways 🙂
First I hit up ModCloth. I had a $20 off coupon that was burning a hole in my pocket. I only intended to buy this ridiculously over-priced sweater (click on all images to visit sites):
But failed cycles make me weak and by the time I went to checkout three other pieces had magically appeared in my cart.
Now tell me that dress won’t look fantastic with the sweater? Or with a little blazer, my mustard tights and some booties?
A fresh mustard scarf. Last year’s mustard scarf is looking pretty sad and now sports a coffee stain.
And a perfect cream top to layer things over and under. I have a few yards of this golden-colored fabric with green apples on it. I envision it as a short circle skirt with a chunky lace at the bottom paired with this top and maybe a burnt orange sweater vest.
After doing considerable damage at ModCloth I checked my other email account and found an email advertising 50% off select new styles at Loft. And I clicked. Sigh. High hormones + failure = ZERO self-control.
I love the mushroom color of this top. It will pair so nicely with lots of my fall skirts and should layer well when it cools off more.
And finally this skirt which I VERY much hope fits, but often times things with waistbands that sit a little higher look ridiculous on my negative torso. But it is worth a shot.
So that concludes depressed Belle’s Retail Therapy Spree. Could I afford this? NO! This means next months plans to purchase gallery glass for a few of my nice pieces of art will have to be postponed until November or December. Did a little frivolity make me feel a little better about next month? Yes.
Sometimes I think we lose sight of ourselves during infertility thinking that every penny must be set aside for things like acupuncture and out-of-pocket costs. Every time a cycle fails we feel a little crappier about ourselves. Walking into a closet full of things that are old and, lets face it, ill-fitting after months or years of infertility only brings us down further.
So I treated myself from my account which has recently been used to cover doctors bills and home improvements. It’s time to improve myself a bit and I think a new sweater and company is a good way to do so.
Do you treat yourself after a failed cycle? Have you been known to have a little shopping binge after a particularly crappy run of negative pee sticks?
Current Coupons & Deals:
ModCloth: Signup a new account at ModCloth (you need a new email address from your current account – I used my blog email) and get a $20 coupon. Offer good for the month of September only.
Loft: 50% off sale styles and select full-priced items at Loft. Ends today!
Sorry I did not do this yesterday. I was a little self-absorbed in my own “woe is Belle.”
Huge congrats to my friend Bethany and her BFP! She is not a blogger however we keep in touch via email. She has had a long journey herself so this is really big stuff!
Elizabeth @ Bebe Suisse promises to not POAS until September 19.
BFP Bethany promises not to POAS until September 10.
BFN @ About Sprout is a little pee stick phobic but promises not to POAS until September 11.
Amanda @ Reading Each Page promises not to POAS until September 18.
BFN Mo @ Mommy Odyssey promises not to POAS until September 10.
IVFMale’s wife will not POAS until September 16.
Kate promises not to POAS until September 18.
Lindzlamp @ Chronicles of the Conceptually Challenged promises not to POAS until September 17.
BFN Wearelreaningtomakefire @ We Are Learning To Make Fire test day was Sunday, Sept. 9.
Vanessa promises not to POAS until September 16.
Testing Today! Jessica @ From My Bathtub Testing Today!
Jen @ My Bum Ovaries promises not to POAS until September 16.
Thanks for all the great feedback on the new look of Scrambled Eggs! I’m pretty tootin’ pleased with it myself! The sewing tab has been updated with the sewing projects I have posted thus far. I hope to have a good hair day this weekend and photograph my other projects – both the successes and the fails and believe me, there have been some terrible fails. Next week I’ll work on the “eat” tab, which is really neglected right now, and get it set up to feature my recipes from this blog and some of my better ones on our Adventures in Marriage blog.