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09/20/2012

Belle

I have lots of other posts started that are more about infertility, less about autoimmune, but today all I can worry about are my eyes.

I have chronic uveitis of autoimmune nature. It’s been hanging around annoying the shit out of me for almost three years now. It has also been slowly stealing my vision. From what the doctors say, eventually I will have to give up TTC and go on immune suppressing drugs to save my sight.  This is the scariest prospect ever. Immune suppressing drugs come with a slew of ghastly side effects, one of which is lymphoma. Immune suppressing drugs are so toxic that they kill babies. Immune suppressing drugs mean no more TTC.

I have a check up with an eye specialist today. I’ve been having some ocular discomfort, dry eyes and headaches that could be due to numerous factors:

  • Failed cycle and impending period
  • Withdrawal from all the hormones
  • Allergies (I can’t WAIT for all the grass and weeds to die so people stop cutting them! I can’t bike by a lawn mower without feeling terrible. I need to live in the tundra.)
  • My having started Prozac (this is a post for later)
  • Or the bastard uveitis

These are a lot of possibilities but I’m still terrified it is the uveitis gearing up for another massive flare. I seem to flare the worst during the fall months, right before the holidays. If any of you have a smidgen of good vibes or positive prayers to spare today, maybe think about my eyes. My checkup is at 3:30 p.m. Hopefully it is good news.

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  1. September 20, 2012

    Lots of positive thoughts coming your way, my dear. *hugs*

  2. September 20, 2012

    Always good vibes for you, Belle!

  3. September 20, 2012

    I’m sending you all the positive vibes and energy I have! Plus lots and lots of cyber hugs!!!! Good luck, sweetie!

  4. September 20, 2012

    Positive thoughts are being sent your way. I’m really sorry to hear this – it sounds awful. Hang in there.

  5. September 20, 2012

    Sending positive thoughts, Belle. I hope you receive nothing but positive news at your appointment.

  6. September 20, 2012

    Pulling for you on this appointment. Positive vibes…ACTIVATE!

  7. September 20, 2012

    No massive flare! Are you more stressed in the fall months or over the holidays? Do the doctors seem to know why you have more problems during those months?

  8. September 20, 2012

    I am sending you positive vibes and just lifted a prayer for you. xoxo

  9. September 20, 2012

    Prayers for you today!

  10. September 21, 2012

    Oh, how scary! Hoping it is any of the lesser options. Good luck and I’ll be thinking about you.

  11. September 21, 2012

    Good vibes for you! I know every check up fills you with these same feelings.. I hope hope hope this time it is still a non-uveitis related thing. ❤

  12. September 21, 2012

    Thinking of you!

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