I have lots of other posts started that are more about infertility, less about autoimmune, but today all I can worry about are my eyes.
I have chronic uveitis of autoimmune nature. It’s been hanging around annoying the shit out of me for almost three years now. It has also been slowly stealing my vision. From what the doctors say, eventually I will have to give up TTC and go on immune suppressing drugs to save my sight. This is the scariest prospect ever. Immune suppressing drugs come with a slew of ghastly side effects, one of which is lymphoma. Immune suppressing drugs are so toxic that they kill babies. Immune suppressing drugs mean no more TTC.
I have a check up with an eye specialist today. I’ve been having some ocular discomfort, dry eyes and headaches that could be due to numerous factors:
- Failed cycle and impending period
- Withdrawal from all the hormones
- Allergies (I can’t WAIT for all the grass and weeds to die so people stop cutting them! I can’t bike by a lawn mower without feeling terrible. I need to live in the tundra.)
- My having started Prozac (this is a post for later)
- Or the bastard uveitis
These are a lot of possibilities but I’m still terrified it is the uveitis gearing up for another massive flare. I seem to flare the worst during the fall months, right before the holidays. If any of you have a smidgen of good vibes or positive prayers to spare today, maybe think about my eyes. My checkup is at 3:30 p.m. Hopefully it is good news.