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Leftovers: They may be cheaper…



… but boy do they make you barfy!

I’m cheap and taking 2mg estradiol tablets three times a day for this FET instead of the expensive Vivelle Dots. While I love saving money, I do not love the side effects. I guess the Vivelle dot enters your system more slowly and absorbs. Twenty minutes after one of these suckers goes down the hatch you are all “HOT DAMN I’m gonna vom.” But you don’t actually vom. Instead you moan and groan to your husband until he agrees to drive you to work, and drop you at the door, and then leave the car in your parking lot and hike in the rain to campus (I work for The Big University in a downtown office and he works for The Big University on campus).

Vom aside, I have lots of little bits to share today making this more of a “Leftovers” post than a earth-shattering, heart wrenching post like earlier this week. To keep things a little less “OMG All Over The Place” I’ll use bullets. But first, a photo of what I hope to be enjoying after 5 today – Pinot Noir, the best thing about not being knocked up.

Actually, I think this is a glass of Malbec. Whatever it was, it was delicious and enjoyed while in Asheville, NC and tonight I fully intend to find more delicious red wine.

  • Saw my psychiatrist yesterday. We’ll call her Dr. Brain. Dr. Brain oversees my medication and makes sure that my counselor  is still making positive strides through baggage. The first thing out of Dr. Brain’s mouth was, “You look better!” I was pleased. We talked about my intrusive hypochondria thoughts; about the failed cycle; and about my plans to do better this cycle and make a warm, welcoming environment for our embryos (shit… that’s plural now. I am so scared.) She was pleased with my progress and said she would like me to stay on just 5 mg of Prozac a day for another month. She does not want to bump me up unless I’m feeling unstable. I appreciate her conservative approach.
  • Next week is a big week! On Tuesday I meet with my *NEW*   **AWESOME**  ***GOING TO CURE ME***  Ocular Immunologist. Ok, that last one is a stretch as there is no cure for uveitis, just care for symptoms, but still. I have HUGE expectations that this guy is going to manage my disease so well that I no longer have complete dives in my vision. This year my eyes tanked a full diameter – from a -3.75 in one eye to a -4.75. Not cool y’all. Not cool at all. This new guy, he is going to fix that (I hope).
  • Also next week: Lining Check on Wednesday for FET 3. Let’s all take a moment to think some thick thoughts for my ute. I’m drinking Red Raspberry Leaf tea right now and hope to give my feet a couple good evening soaks this weekend to help with thickening.
  • I am excited to announce that I have purchased Keiko Zoll’s “The You Project” in attempts to regain some control over my self-image. Infertility has had a seriously negative impact on my self-esteem and it is time to make some changes. I’ve never actually done anything like this and am not a big “self-help” person. I’m much more a “put on your big girl panties and deal” person. Well, my big girl panties are falling apart and my sanity is going with them so perhaps it is time to try a new approach.  I know several of you are working on Keiko’s “The You Project,” too. I very much look forward to reading about your progress!
  • Our new couch cover has arrived. It’s beautiful. And clean. And free of cat vom stains. I’ll post photos and do a review of Bemz products soon. I also want to review our new cat scratcher. I know, I’m just brimming with excitement these days. But seriously, it’s a great scratcher and the Large Fries actually scratch on it.
  • On a super vain note: My hair is growing. I think it will be recovered come my brothers wedding in April. As much as I like the low maintenance aspects of short hair, I really miss my bob. It was me. This is not.
  • One last bullet and then I’ll leave you in peace: Any suggestions on how to manage all the damned meds and supplements associated with TTC? I’m having a hard time keeping track of everything lately and twice this week have forgotten my Advair (asthma medication) which is a big no-no.  I have thought about a pill-box but some of the things like Advair, my homeopathic nose spray and PIO injections can’t go in the box. Thoughts? Cute solutions found on Pinterest?

That’s enough rambling for now. Happy weekend, y’all! May it be filled with pumpkin pie, Pinot Noir (if you are not pregnant) and cool fall temperatures!





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  1. September 28, 2012

    I’m so glad to hear you got your copy of The You Project! I hope you enjoy it – please do feel free to share your thoughts about going through it! If you have questions, comments, etc – feel free to email me at info AT keikozoll DOT com 🙂

    • September 28, 2012

      I absolutely will, Keiko! I am catching up on your blog right now and sending your embryos some super rocking vibes all the way from Kentucky.

  2. September 28, 2012

    I had a glass too much Chardonnay Pinot noir last night…but it was so good, and Ian isn’t a wine drinker.

    I can’t wait for you to get started on The You Project!

    My meds moved into my old nail polish storage container when my polish collection got too big. It sits on the top shelf of a bookcase in the living room where I can see it and not forget.

  3. 35life #
    September 28, 2012

    The You Project sounds really cool, I’m gonna have to look into it. Ahhh Pinot Noir – my fave! Have one or two for me!!

  4. Shelley #
    September 28, 2012

    What’s the connection between soaking your feet and thickening your lining!? A new TTC trick I have not heard of…

  5. September 28, 2012

    Mmmm, wine. It was shiraz for me last night. (I know – horrible. But the first few days of the tww should be safe, right?)

    I’m looking forward to hearing your thoughts on Keiko’s book. I’ve been thinking of getting it as well. My poor self-esteem needs all the help it can get.

  6. September 28, 2012

    how are you already at lining check??? I seemed to always be stuck with about 6-8 weeks between failed cycle and next transfer. I love that yours are so close together, without the missing gazillion weeks in between. Thinking fat fluffy thoughts for your ute. But not fat enough for two :)….just perfect fat enough for one happy embie.

    • September 28, 2012

      I know, right!? This doctor moves fast. He sees no reason to down-reg me unless my hormone levels come back all off next week. He likes to use the least medication possible for FETs. I sure hope his plan works!

  7. meggola #
    September 28, 2012

    I’m glad your doc is being conservative with the prozac. I’ve been told it’s best to take the lowest dose possible that is still ‘therapeutic’ – again, a word from my therapist. I think it’s a good approach. It takes them a little bit to get working fully as well – like, up to a couple of months, so it’s good to give yourself time to see how you’re feeling then increase if necessary. Another good thing about being on a low dose is that when you do get pregnant and decide you want to wean off, it’s easier to do. I was on a low dose of Zoloft and it only took a week or two of taking it every other day to wean off.

    Also, I bet you could come up with some kind of really cute checklist idea for your meds. Either a basic white board or something super cute involving fabric where you can list each med and mark off when you’ve taken each one. I had the same trouble with my FET – I was taking 14 pills a day at one point (I think 14 was the high) and all at different times of day, plus the PIO in the mornings – it was crazy keeping track of them all!

    Enjoy the wine! (Just not too much – it’s not good to mix alcohol and SSRIs – sorry).

  8. karaleen #
    September 28, 2012

    For your meds…do you have a smart phone? set yourself reminders on it. I have to do that or I forget everything.
    Yay for all the good things happening. Better living through chemicals is what we like to say 🙂

  9. September 28, 2012

    So glad things are going well! I wanted to share my system for remembering meds…I don’t know if photos will show up here, but Ill try. I did 2 spreadsheets. One for what meds to take which day, and one with the starting dose of each med and I subtracted what I took so I would know far in advanced when I’d need a refill. Heres the pics (lets see if this works):

  10. jak #
    September 28, 2012

    everything sounds great!! maybe think about money everytime you pop a vomstradiol and it will take away the yack vibe?

    i think that quality beer is good for your lining. i drink plenty of it (more than i’ll ever tell me RE) and i get my period like a champ y’all. right on time and heavy as hell. never missed one in my life, unfortunately. but working on hopefully missing them for 9 mos plus;)

    keep on rockin’ miss belle, take good care of yourself, and good luck with your upcoming FET!!!!!!!!!

  11. September 28, 2012

    Mmmm Pinot Noir (or Malbec)- both delicious (especially with the nights getting cooler these days!).

    Do you have a smartphone? How about setting a reminder at the various times of the day that you need to take your meds? Or moving them to a place where you will see them when you need to take them? My prenatal and the progesterone are in our medicine cabinet as a reminder to take them every night.

  12. September 28, 2012

    not that this will help you much now, but I have 6 leftover vivelle dots should you ever need them…..wanting to vom sounds icky….

  13. September 28, 2012

    fluffy, cushy, cloud-like, snuggleicious, cuddle buggle. I wish all this and more for your ute! drink that RRLT like a champ! And also the pinot. Damn I love wine.

  14. September 30, 2012

    Hey, if you have one immune condition, you may easily have others that cause infertility. Most REs are clueless about reproductive immunology. Check out the FAQ on my blog…. wishing you the best!!

  15. September 30, 2012

    Glad to hear you are doing well! Good luck at ll of your appointments next week! I take 4 2mg tabs of estradiol each day…luckily they haven’t bothered me so far. I also use my iPhone calendar to set reminders to take my meds. It’s insane…

  16. September 30, 2012

    One super easy thing to do is make a table in Word with your medications, dosage and what times of day you’re supposed to take them. Put the printed page inside one of those plastic sleeves and use a water soluable marker to mark it off each day. It may be difficult to imagine, but when my dog was on chemotherapy it really helped keep track of which meds he’d taken each day.

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