Last cycle, i.e. FET 2, I decided to exercise pee stick self control and pledged to wait until 7dpt6dt to take an HPT. It was negative. I peed a few more times before my beta and each test was a painful negative. It was depressing.
In the past I have been a seriously early tester. Testing throughout the two week wait gave me a sense of realism about the cycle. It helped lessen the soul-crushing blow when the clinic called to report a negative beta test. My patience last cycle just made that first negative test all the more difficult to swallow.
I also pledged to let the Professor read the test so he could be more involved. Sadly, seeing his look of devastation was even worse then crying alone in the bathroom at 4 a.m. Testing by myself gives me the chance to digest the outcome and then prepare for the devastation or elation that will come from the Professor.
Embarrassing confession: in the past I have peed exclusively on FRER tests, certain that by using the gold-standard of pee stick I could magically encourage pregnancy. Instead I just magically spent a shit-ton of money. This cycle I purchased generic Target tests. WHEN one of these turns up positive I’ll
run like a crazy woman wander to the drug store and purchase a pack of FRER tests.
My pledge: this cycle I’m privately peeing on all kinds of store brand things starting on a slightly unreasonable date of 4-5dpt5dt.
Yeah, I know that is still too early for a positive but I’m tired of exercising self-restraint. Let the peeing begin… in a few more days!
How about my cycle buddies? Are you going to pee with reckless abandon with me? Or are you going to be sensible and wait till beta day?
I have all sorts of things that I would like to write about, but have to turn my attention to the backlog of requests that appeared in my Inbox during the last three days. I’m not complaining though: I love to be busy at work and am looking forward to all these projects to keep my fingers and mind occupied during the next 14 days.