Thanks for all the kind words, thoughtful prayers and sage advice. You are all right, I’m probably blowing this way out of proportion. This PTSD is serious shit. I have two lines. Symptoms come and go, especially at 14dpo. That is all that matters.
In addition to everything I seem to have come down with the Professor’s cold despite all our best attempts. I’m now congested, coughing and my throat is killing me from drainage. No fever, thank goodness. Worried more about the cold than the fleeting symptoms, I called the clinic and asked the nurse what I can take (Tylenol and plain Robitussin) if I can’t sleep due to all the coughing. Otherwise I’ll continue to gargle saltwater, sleep with my vaporizer and do all my natural remedies – minus the Hot Toddy, of course!
I also asked if there is any way to move the beta up since I’ve been getting positives since Tuesday night. She said absolutely and to have it drawn on Monday first thing. If I went this afternoon we would not be able to do a repeat at 48 hours which makes sense (the lab I go to in town is closed on weekends). Now only three more sleeps till beta day.
I went into this transfer with a sense of peace knowing that it would yield my take-home baby. I am working on restoring that faith. No amount of pee sticks are going to change anything. As of this morning I’m officially out of FRERs and not buying more. I’m trusting my body and my baby – they are doing all the right things.
At least this is the case for right now. Hopefully this weekend my therapist can help me relax a little bit so I can enjoy my weekend and be ready to celebrate a strong beta on Monday. Thanks again for all your support and I look forward to “joining” many of you tomorrow for our Spiritual/Virtual Walk to Remember.