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Welcome ICLW! (and the rest of the Chicken update)



I think the last time I participated in ICLW might have been last year… or maybe early this spring. Either way, it’s been a long time and I’m looking forward to meeting some new bloggers!

A little about me and then the rest of my update from last night:

Hi! My name is Belle. I’m a 32 year-old infertile currently living in Lexington, Kentucky with my lovely husband, the Professor, and our four cats. When not obsessing over the emptiness of my uterus I enjoy being outside, sewing, cooking, photography and spending time with friends.

Our journey to have a child officially started in January 2011. I always had a hunch that getting pregnant might be harder for me than others, but never expected it to be this difficult. To date we have had one failed Clomid cycle that ended in a rare reaction (massive hair loss); two failed IUIs with Gonal-F; one hospitalization for OHSS syndrome and a belly-tap; one extraordinarily painful IVF egg retrieval that left me benched due to the risk of another round of OHSS; three FETs; one miscarriage and now a second pregnancy.

Today I am proud to say I’m 8.5 weeks pregnant – more pregnant that I have ever been. Every day is wrought with emotion as I struggle to stay positive and not dwell on my previous loss. My symptoms are very mild and disappear for days on end leaving me certain of failure. Sometimes I feel that pregnancy after infertility and loss is like trying to paddle across the Mississippi in a rowboat with a hole in the bottom – I just can’t pull ahead due to always bailing out more water.


Ok, now the rest of my update from last night. I know I left a lot of things out. I was tired and the Professor was rather grumpy and needed tending too!

So the ultrasound went well. The Chicken was measuring about 17.5 mm and had a perfect heartbeat. He or she had both arms and legs present and accounted for which makes me TREMENDOUSLY happy. I could also see a distinct head.

So this is going to sound really crazy, but the roaster chicken ultrasound had me in a silent panic: where the heck is the head? I googled Trisomy 15 when I lost Pip and the images I saw were horrifying. Intelligent Belle knew that a Trisomy 15 making it that far is extremely rare and that my chance of delivering a full size baby with major issues is VERY  low. Irrational Belle, however, saw that roaster chicken and could only think about how terribly nightmarish it looked. Where the hell was the head?

Turns out it was there. Yesterday the Chicken had a distinct head, two arms, two legs, a lovely umbilical cord, spine and more. The sack was a perfect round shape and size. Everything was perfect.

And guess what? That damned hematoma was nowhere to be found! Dr. B still wants me to chill out for two more weeks to make sure things are properly healed, which unfortunately means no exercise for another two weeks and no walking the Thanksgiving 5k with my dad, but I’m sure he will understand once we tell him the good news.

Next ultrasound is November 4 – two whole weeks away!

And now, sweet readers, I need to brush our cats* before my family invades. Tonight my mom, dad, brother and sister-in-law will be arriving to celebrate Thanksgiving. We plan to also tell them the good news on Thursday. I’ll be sure to let you know how that goes!

* Yes, I brush the cats before we have guests. When you have four of them the cat fur is a little, um, overwhelming. Brushing helps and then the grandcats look extra pretty to see grandma and grandpa 🙂





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  1. November 21, 2012

    Just so happy for you 😀 Continuing to send super positive thoughts your way. Hurrah for hematoma disappearing!

  2. November 21, 2012

    Wonderful news!

  3. November 21, 2012

    What wonderful news for you. Congratulations and stay healthy. It’s a scary time for all of us but I have no doubt yours is a whole new level of scary.

  4. November 21, 2012

    So so happy for you. 🙂 Yaaa for ICLW and Yaaa for the little chicken. Hope you have a happy Thanksgiving!!!
    ICLW #17

  5. November 21, 2012

    I know its impossible to not freak out (because I did too and bought a home doppler which I use to listen to the heartbeats about every other day to prrove it), but I had very very mild symptoms myself (like almost none) and everything so far has turned out fine. So glad chicken is healthy! WOO!

  6. El #
    November 21, 2012

    So happy for you! When I went asleep last night, you didn’t updated yet, so this night when I woke up for a little bit, first thing I did, was grab my phone and search for some news. Slept way better after reading your fantastic news. Take your rest and enjoy your little chicken.

  7. November 21, 2012

    Awesome. Don’t mean to cause you more worry, but I do hope there isn’t a “Me too” at your announcement. I’m tired of reading about an infertile finally getting to announce their happy news and the moment to glow being stolen by an “oops” pregnancy announcement.

    Happy Thanksgiving to you, the Professor, little chicken, and the clowder. 🙂

  8. November 21, 2012

    So glad that chicken has a head! I think pregnancy after loss would be one of the toughest things. I haven’t gotten pregnant again since my loss, but I imagine if I ever do I’ll have to hire a personal ultrasound tech to live at my house. Two weeks! Yikes! Hang in there Belle! Glad your little one is holding strong!

  9. November 21, 2012

    Great news!!!

  10. November 21, 2012

    I had a miscarriage before I had my baby and his pregnancy was full of anxiety. I’m glad to hear that everything is going well so far 🙂

    I have an ultrasound pic of G in which he looks like a turkey. You can’t really see the his legs below the knee. I freaked out that he was going to come out with half a leg!

    Hope you have a great Thanksgiving!!

    ICLW #63

  11. November 21, 2012

    I had a miscarriage before I had my son. It was a very anxiety filled pregnancy. I’m glad to hear that everything is going well so far!

    I have an ultrasound pic of G in which he looks like a turkey — you can’t see the part of his leg below the knee. It worried me, but he turned out fine 🙂 I guess he had his legs crossed.

    I hoep you have a great Thanksgiving!

    ICLW #63

  12. Shelley #
    November 21, 2012

    Oh thank goodness! What I told myself was that with each set of good news, we were that much more likely to have this really work out. Each of these steps is monumental for us! So happy you have a good report going into the holiday (and okay, a little bit jealous…). 🙂

  13. jak #
    November 21, 2012

    CHICKENNNNNNN HEEEEEEEEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m so happy everything looked great. keep growing, chick!

    hahah, tell me about it (the irrational thoughts after struggle) – almost just canceled tgivin announcement because i am STILL depressed about the 3yr struggle and not really embracing this pregnancy. GET OVER IT, right? i feel like this is happening to someone else, like i am having an out of body experience, because, me?, no, there’s no way i’m pregnant.

    heh! totally know the brushing drill. i’m brushing my dogs today too;) last week we threw our first tgivin dinner and i brushed them the day before, then vacuumed that morning and whaddya know? the floors were already covered in hair when guest came arrived.

    happy brushing and happier thanksgiving!!

  14. November 21, 2012

    So happy for you!
    Although I am keeping my fingers, toes and eye balls crossed for you!
    No matter what this will be a good thing! I just know it!
    Enjoy Thanksgiving with your family!
    Cannot wait to hear their responses to your AMAZING news!

  15. November 21, 2012

    Go, Chicken!

    I’m so happy you got good news yesterday. Relax and enjoy your Thanksgiving!

  16. November 21, 2012

    Woohoo!!!! Amazing news… see, that spotting probably was the hematoma just making its grand exit. 🙂 I really think you can breathe a sigh of relief at this point. BEST. THANKSGIVING. EVER. But yeesh… two whole weeks before the next ultrasound? Hopefully it goes by quickly… just keep brushing your kitties obsessively and distract yourself with manic sewing. 🙂

  17. November 21, 2012

    I love that you’re going to tell them on Thanksgiving! So awesome to reveal news like that on big holidays! Also, sometimes our babies would be facing the wrong way during an ultrasound and I’d be like… MAYBE MY BABY DOESN’T HAVE A FACE! But they did have faces, and still do. The ultrasounds don’t get a 360 image. 🙂

  18. November 21, 2012

    So happy to hear this. Much love to you, Belle, and I hope you have a marvelous Thanksgiving with your family.

  19. WTW #
    November 21, 2012

    Thrilled to hear that the Chicken has all its parts! Bleeding is so damn scary (I’ve been dealing with it pretty non-stop). Let’s hope it stays far away from both of us for the rest of our pregnancies! GO CHICKEN!

  20. November 21, 2012

    Happy ICLW and congratulations! I hope you have a wonderful holiday and that sharing your news is an amazing moment for you!

  21. November 21, 2012

    Yay for a great ultrasound!! Great news right before the holiday! Enjoy tomorrow!

  22. November 21, 2012

    The grandkitties should always look fantastic for their guests!

    I’m so glad your scan went so well, and that Chicken will be arriving in June with a big head!

  23. stupidstork #
    November 21, 2012

    All awesome news! Yayyyy chicken!

    Also, I adore you if for no other reason than the cat-brushing. Amazing.

  24. Ginny #
    November 21, 2012

    SO Happy!! Hurray Chicken keep on growing in there!! Hope you and the professor have a wonderful T-giving and all is well….xo

  25. November 21, 2012

    I am so thrilled about this pregnancy – sending lots of love and hugs. x

  26. SM #
    November 21, 2012

    Great news! Little chicken is hanging in there! Happy ICLW!

  27. November 21, 2012

    Hi from ICLW. Congratulations on your pregnancy!

  28. Liz #
    November 21, 2012

    Visiting from ICLW. Congratulations on your pregnancy, it sounds like it took a lot to get there. I recently started quilting and love it. It’s a grant activity to keep busy.

  29. Liz #
    November 21, 2012

    Visiting from ICLW. Congratulations on your pregnancy, it sounds like it took a lot to get there. I recently started quilting and love it. It’s a great activity to keep busy.

  30. November 21, 2012

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving tomorrow! Feed your little chicken everything s/he wants!

  31. November 22, 2012

    Happy Thanksgiving, enjoy this time with family. So happy for you!!

  32. November 22, 2012

    8,5 weeks!! Woohoo!! Have a great thanksgiving!

  33. November 22, 2012

    So glad your little chicken is looking good. Happy Thanksgiving!

  34. November 22, 2012

    Now that I have a brushable cat (the other ones doesn’t need/like it) I feel like brushing her is my full time job- good thing she likes it.

    Happy for you. 8.5 weeks is HUGE.

  35. November 22, 2012

    congratulations on your pregnancy and reaching 8.5 weeks, hope it is all smooth sailing from here.

  36. Erika #
    November 22, 2012

    The worries are hard to conquer after such a long IF battle. From 9.5 weeks, I could find the heartbeat with a Doppler at home. At times, it took me 30 minutes to find it, but that little thing was a sanity saver for the whole pregnancy.
    Congrats on your pregnancy and on the great u/s update! #33

  37. Romy #
    November 23, 2012

    That is awesome news! And only 3 more weeks to your 12 week ultrasound when you can really start to enjoy being pregnant without the worries – hopefully! That’ what I keep telling myself too but I can only hope that that ultrasound truly will mark the end of my worries 😉
    Happy Thanksgiving!

  38. November 23, 2012

    Congrats and hello from ICLW! 🙂

  39. November 25, 2012

    Congratulations on making it this far! I understand your worries. We spend so much time, effort, money, emotion, etc. into conquering our infertility. I hope that this time around gives you a success story to share!

  40. November 25, 2012

    I’m excited for you being preggie and all but….
    I can’t get over you brushing your cats.

    I thought I might be the only cat lady out there 😛

    Xoxo – Kayla
    ICLW #52

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