The anxiety over today’s scan was less than the rest. I am starting to feel more changes in my body aside from simply looking like a tube and that is giving me a little more confidence. I feel a little discomfort when I lay on my belly for my PIO shot. I am noticing a little firm roundness to my lower belly. My boobs continue to grow (so exciting for a formerly boobless girl!). I’m hungry all the time and need lots of sleep. My hair looks fantastic aside from the bad cut and my skin is more broken out then when I was 14. All promising signs that something is growing in there.
The Professor, though, has been worried sick. Last night his sleep was filled with anxiety dreams about the worst case scenario and he was unusually quiet on the drive to Ohio this morning. As we sat in the exam room waiting on Dr. B he said, “This is torture. I just want to know everything is ok.” It broke my heart to know that the stress of my infertility has been affecting him so profoundly.
Dr. B came in after about 10 minutes and explained that today is his OB day and he had already seen 3 other pregnant women. I said that I hope they all had good news. “Yes, all good news, which makes my day so much better,” he said. “It is so, so hard when there is bad news.” As I laid back and hoisted my feet into the stirrups I realized that I was his fourth OB patient of the day. One out of every four pregnancies ends in loss. The other three were good…. Please, please, please don’t let me be his 25%.
In went the dildo cam and up popped a HUGE baby! Well, huge in comparison to the past few scans. Today we saw:
- A beautiful beating heart
- A stomach churning away
- An aorta pumping
- A beautiful brain
- Two perfect arms
- Eyes and the beginnings of ears
- A slightly creepy but still amazing skull
- Two LONG legs. Longer than most, Dr. B said, which is absolutely no surprise given that the Professor is 6 foot 4 inches and has the longest legs I have ever seen and I’m 5 foot 6 and have far more leg length than torso length!
- An adorable foot with toes
- A perfect little spine
- And this is the most amazing, we saw our little Chicken flop around, wave a hand and reach up and rub an eye
You guys, this was the most incredible thing I have ever seen. Little Chicken is measuring 40 mm from crown to rump (I love saying rump) and everything looked just perfect. Dr. B laughed during the ultrasound saying that our little Chicken was putting on way more of a show for us then most babies at 10 weeks. I have four amazing photos I’ll copy and share with you all in a few days.
And then he said something that I was not ready for – he is releasing us to our OB.
Wait, what? An OB? Already? I had expected one more scan with this awesome doctor. I would have brought cookies had I known it was my last scan! I looked at Dr. B and teared up saying, “But I like YOU. I want to stay here with you.” He laughed and said this is a good thing and that he is glad to see us move on but does expect a birth announcement and Christmas cards.
I’m overwhelmed to be here. To be facing the choices of OBs. To have seen my child moving. To have seen the joy and relief in my husbands’ eyes. To have talked about buying baby things on the drive home (not buying things yet, but planning a trip home in the Spring to hit a HUGE church yard sale and hopefully snag some necessities). As each day passes I feel a little more comfortable about this pregnancy. I still have a hard time saying “I’m pregnant” and sometimes can’t choke it out (two stories coming tomorrow on this) but am slowly getting there, one day at a time.
P.S. Any OB or midwife suggestions for the Lexington area? I am planning natural unmedicated child birth and am currently leaning towards a midwife but am open to suggestions and personal experiences.