It feels like I’ve been away from this space for ages. I had hoped to post when I got home from Texas on Monday but I was exhausted from the trip and drained from round, what is it, four? five? six? of eye drama. While in Texas I noticed that half the white on my left eye was super red and blood shot. Cue major freak out. I feel so bad for my friend- I tried to solider on and put my worries aside but think I failed miserably. (I’m sorry 😦 )
Monday I got home and promptly called my specialist in Louisville and made an appointment for Tuesday at 2 p.m. By Tuesday morning the eye was looking and feeling a little better, but still had that heavy, grainy feeling of inflammation that I’ve come to know so well. I did not, however, have light sensitivity or a uveitis headache (these are pretty distinct) so I was baffled. Maybe it was just a burst blood vessel since I’m pregnant and pregnancy has blessed me with all these damn spider veins all over my face and body (have I written about this? I should. It’s distressing).
Turns out I was wrong on both accounts – not uveitis nor a burst blood vessel. Instead I have a new type of eye inflammation to add to my list. Welcome Episcleritis or inflammation of the white part of my eye. In normal people this just happens and goes away, but in uveitis patients it should be monitored to make sure it does not “spill over” into the iris and lead to uveitis. I left with instructions to rest the eye, keep it moist with drops and not wear contacts until it clears up.
I’m so relieved this is not a uveitis flare, but am incredibly annoyed that I now show a second kind of immune-related ocular inflammation. Please, can a girl catch a break?
Otherwise, it was so good to see my beautiful Texan friend. She will be getting married in mid-May and, sadly, I just can’t make it due to pregnancy and the financial stress of our upcoming move. We spent the weekend talking wedding plans, helping her find outfits for her engagement shoot and then she tried on her wedding dress for me which was so freaking stunning! I can’t wait to see her wedding photos and to see the “first look” pictures as I know she is going to knock her fiance off his feet!
In Chicken news: the lump is continuing to grow. I bumped it on the plane on Monday, which was weird and left me sort of annoyed with myself. I’m still uncomfortable with this new Homer Simpson shape.
On Saturday my right boob decided that it was time to make a humongous mess and spent the entire day leaking more than either boob has leaked before. We are talking serious leakage people – like so much leakage that by the end of the day my bra was wet and uncomfortable. Boobs have been quiet and relatively leak-free since then. Such a strange thing!
I’ve been feeling the Chicken dancing away in my snugly ute for quite a while now. I have come to love these little pokes and prods and am starting to notice a regular sleep/wake pattern. The movements are always these adorable “Awwwww! Chicken dance!” moments. Friends and acquaintances have all said that these movements would eventually become uncomfortable and annoying but I just didn’t believe them. Surely Chicken Dances would always be a joy.
Hahahahahaha! Keep telling yourself that, Belle. Last night while snuggling down in the life raft (a.k.a. my pregnancy pillow) the Chicken did something and I found myself gasping and saying, out loud, “Gross!”
How terrible is that? It just felt… gross. This was the first time in this pregnancy that I have been extremely aware that there is another human inside of me. This is not some cute little embryo anymore. This is not the tiny three inch person I saw so many months ago on the ultrasound screen. No, this is a human, with two arms and two long legs and a very large head courtesy of the Professor. It was a very strange moment and a very strange feeling. I’m not looking forward to the next time he/she flops around like that!
Did anyone else have a defining moment where baby movements went from “awww” to “eeeeewwwww?” Anyone else have a boob that went bat shit crazy for 24 hours and leaked all over the place, just to quiet back down again like nothing was happening?