This morning I dropped the Professor off at the Blue Grass Airport. In his bag were the usual travel necessities – clean clothing, toiletries, Kindle and laptop – in addition to a few additional items – camera with two memory cards & battery charger, a tape measure and a stack of 5 page each “Checklists” for co-op shopping.
As he made his way through security I made my way home and had a mini meltdown. You guys, I’m a huge control freak. Knowing that he will be spending the next four days viewing properties in NYC and then making an offer on what will hopefully be our next home is KILLING me. I want nothing more than to be able to go with him and obsessively inspect each and every home. He jokes that I missed my calling as a home inspector and he might be right.
I turn on faucets, I check water pressure, I inspect ceilings for signs of leaks, I try outlets, I move furniture and rugs to inspect flooring, I poke through all cabinets and drawers looking for any signs of water damage or trouble, I open windows, I walk neighborhoods, I talk to other residents. I do all of this for a RENTAL. I would do even more for a property I was going to purchase.
I don’t have this luxury this time. At 32 weeks pregnant and coming up on the last of my days at work, I just can’t leave for a week. Projects need finished and, honestly, with how out of breath I get climbing the basement stairs, I don’t really think I’m ready to book it from viewing to viewing and then spend the evenings prowling neighborhoods and counting street walkers!
So now I’ll sit back and wait for his calls as he views places and hopefully is able to Face-time some walk throughs with me. Each night he’ll send me floor plans and I’ll make sure our remaining furniture will fit comfortably while still leaving floor space for baby and cats.
Place bets now on how many more meltdowns we have before all is said and done!
In other news: I had my 32 week checkup today. Dr. Shannon said everything looks good. I’m up about 26/27 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight. We won’t even calculate what I’m up from my pre-IVF weight! Baby is measuring on target, blood pressure is good and the feeling that my belly button might open up and swallow me whole from Chicken thrashing about each night indicates he/she is growing big and strong!
In two weeks we’ll have our next growth scan with Dr. TeleMed (yuck) and then that afternoon we’ll have a checkup with Dr. Shannon. I’m instructed to bring my birth plan in then so we can go over it and make any adjustments. I sent an email to my Doula last night while in the middle of (another) meltdown about Hypno Babies and my worries that I’m not connecting with the method. I hope that she can offer a little guidance on how I can balance my spiritual self with my scientific self and embrace the concepts it is teaching.
I do have to say that despite the Stewart Smiley nature of them, I am enjoying the daily “Joyful Pregnancy Affirmations.” I listen when doing my makeup in the morning and the affirmations about loving my pregnant body really resonate and often make my eyes fill with tears. Whether I stick with Hypno Babies or not, I do think I’ll continue to listen to these daily for a little positive reinforcement in an otherwise very negative birth culture!
And now, I’m off to work. I came home after my doctors appointment for an hour to write this and play with our needy cat monsters. (As an aside, Euclid was TOTALLY into the Stimpy Video above!)