Baby is in a Frank breech position. Dr. Telemed was all set to schedule a c-section but when I started to sob said we’ll plan a ECV at 37 weeks 2 days. I asked what else I can do on my own before than and he said that there is all kinds of “stuff” on the internet, “But does it really work? No.” I asked about vaginal delivery of a breech baby and he gave me a run around and ended up with the “there are grave risks” song and dance.
I left in tears and have been hiding upstairs ever since (my mother-in-law is visiting and I know she’ll be full of well-meaning advice that only makes me increasingly more angry). I feel so helpless and grossly under-informed I looked at spinningbabies.com but a lot of the stuff there says that things should be done before 34 weeks. I’m 34 weeks. I also need some in person guidance – not a You Tube video. I expected to get this from my practitioner. Again, I was wrong.
I know for many people a c-section is not a big deal, but it is a very big deal for me. I have a lot of other issues and my body has been through a lot of shit. While I adore Dr. Shannon, she would not be doing my c-section and I don’t have any faith what so ever in other doctors at the hospital where we have selected. C-sections come with a slew of other complications, too. I won’t get into them here because we’ve all heard the natural childbirth song and dance. Whether it is your cup of tea or not, there is no hiding from all the risks to mother and baby from a c-section.
Then there is the recovery period for a c-section. Hacked open or not, we are moving and I’m going to be in a new city, alone with a new baby with no baby experience. I will not have the assistance people who have had c-sections receive.
The icing on the cake, is that there are a few select individuals out there who have been vocal in their doubting my ability to have a baby and have a vaginal birth. They have been condescending and harsh. They have reminded me weekly to be prepared for things to fail. I can’t stomach the responses I know I’ll get from them.