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06/14/2013

Belle

I wake up to this precious Yum Yum face right in front of my nose every morning. Photo shot with light from my night light with my iPhone 5 at 4:30 a.m. yesterday.

I wake up to this precious Yum Yum face right in front of my nose every morning. Photo shot with light from my night light with my iPhone 5 at 4:30 a.m. yesterday.

I knew I could count on you all to help. I needed people to say I was not crazy for turning a second attempt down. I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that it won’t work and that, worse, something complicated will happen at a hospital where I am not an established patient and where my wishes/demands may not be met. And like many of you pointed out, there is time still if Chicken is meant to turn to do so on his or her own. I emailed Dr. Shannon this afternoon thanking her but declining. I explained my feelings and she wrote back within minutes saying she would do the same.

Furthermore, I want to ENJOY my last few days with Chicken on the inside. I want to relish the time that no one but me gets to carry baby. And I would like to get some sleep while the only creature demanding my attention each morning is that soft fuzzy one above. Sweet Yum Yum, our days of quiet morning snuggles are numbered. Let’s make the last few days count!

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  1. June 14, 2013

    I’m reading things backwards (I haven’t read your original post yet) but just based on this don’t blame you at all for your decision. Hope you enjoy these last few days with chicken πŸ™‚

  2. SM #
    June 14, 2013

    Enjoy those last few days of Chicken on the inside! July 1st will be here before you know it!

  3. June 14, 2013

    Good for you. I think you made the right choice.

  4. Kathy #
    June 14, 2013

    Good choice !

  5. June 14, 2013

    I think you’re making the right choice! Enjoy these last few quiet days, feeling Chicken move from the inside. πŸ˜€

  6. June 14, 2013

    Yum Yum appreciates your decision. πŸ˜‰

  7. June 15, 2013

    Hoping your decision brings you peace for these last days.
    Yum Yum is cute! Did you know there is a book series with a cat called Yum Yum (and Coco)? It is “The Cat Who…” series. I love them.

  8. June 15, 2013

    I’m sorry I missed your other post, but I wanted to say as someone who did have a 3rd degree tear and has spent many months going to pelvic floor therapy and almost a year doing it myself, I STILL can’t really enjoy sex, and it is a significant trade off. I had a birth most women would probably envy but honestly, the far reaching affects have been almost impossible to move past. I have not truly enjoyed having sex since my daughter was born and it absolutely affects my marriage in very negative ways. I am very nervous about what a second vaginal birth might do to my existing scar tissue or if it will create more scar tissue. There is every chance I will not be able to enjoy sex in any capacity ever again, especially if a second birth causes more damage. I’m not saying what I have experienced is worse than experiencing a c-section but it definitely has significant, negative, long term affect on my life. Sometimes, even when we get the outcome we hoped for, their are unforeseen consequences.

    I know you choose not to try the EVC again so maybe this is a redundant comment, I just wanted to share my experience in the hopes that it would help you come to a place of peace about yours.

    I truly hope the c-section goes well. I love that you’ve found someone who will do a family centered c/s and I have high hopes that it will be a positive birth experience for you.

    Abiding with you.

  9. jak #
    June 15, 2013

    i think you made the right decision for yourself mentally and for your baby. best wishes and let us know how other things are going… the flat near nyc, finding newton a home, washing those baby clothes, and all the other fun stuff you should be thinking about instead of worrying about a second ecv.

    i am glad you found peace:) enjoy your last few days being head-butted in the ribs!! hugs!!!!

  10. June 17, 2013

    I know I am late to the party here, but have you tried acupuncture and inversions (I.e. downward dog several times a day? Mine was breech until pretty late in the game and turned on his own from those interventions. Forgive me if this was covered in a previous post.

  11. June 17, 2013

    Great approach! So important to just cherish these last precious moments, before the even more precious (in a different way) moments begin. πŸ™‚ Chicken is comfy in there and you’re supporting him/her just perfectly, and that’s all that matters.

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