You all, moving stinks. Moving with a newborn stinks even more. We are slowly but surely plodding away at the to-do list, though. Packed boxes are piling up and rooms are gradually emptying. The Professor sold a crap-load of tools at our second yard sale, and then I sold even more for him on Craigslist. My parents have bought our car and friends are lined up each day this week to come collect their purchases (a deep freeze, furniture, a grill, tools, and more). So progress is being made, but boy is it ever slow.
Sabine has had some good days and some bad days. We’ve seen lots of developmental milestones lately. Her “vocabulary” is increasing with new squeals and grunts. Her beautiful brunette hair is quickly falling out and in its place is a fine layer of white blond. She has also sprouted some delightfully expressive eyebrows that I am absolutely in love with. Her favorite things in life right now are:
- Mama’s boob
- Dad’s finger (to suck on)
- “Fan Friend” (ceiling fan)
- Ugly Lamp
- Discussing the different kinds of beans (“What kind of bean are you? Is she a black bean? Nooooo! Is she a lima bean? NOOOOO!”…. and so on until I exclaim, “I know! She is a Sabine!!!”)
- Watching Mama perform old show choir songs (there will be no You Tube of this)
- Walks in the stroller
- Peeking out the window while we nurse
I had to take her into pediatrics on Friday after two days of her eating very little and being rather lethargic. The pediatrician we saw said she seemed healthy to her and then tried to force formula on us. I’m ready to get settled in NY and find a doctor for her that is breastfeeding friendly and will offer us constructive support when times are tough, not just breakout the formula. I realize that there is nothing wrong with formula and if baby’s health were at stake I would certainly do what was needed. But right now, if she is healthy and growing let’s avoid it. You know?
I went home relieved that she was ok but frustrated at this new nursing trend. It seems we are regressing back to the kind of feeds we had during her first two weeks of life. Those marathon feeds where she would just rest on the boob, pacifying and dozing, occasionally waking up to slurp for a minute or three and then drift back off. These feeds last anywhere from a short 45 minutes to an exhausting 90 minutes. After 90 minutes I’m usually getting frustrated and Sabine is ready to nap without me so I hand her off to Daddy. It’s so hard and I have no way of knowing really how much she is eating. I’m trying to take comfort in the 5-7 wet diapers I change each day. Her poos have reduced from 8-10 a day to just 2-3 which I read is normal but still stresses me out to no end.
I’m incredibly disappointed at how little solid breastfeeding support I’m finding as the weeks wear on. I don’t really know what is “normal” and when I consult Google I find horrendously conflicting information. I need to know things like if my supply is established enough at this point to whether a few days of less eating on Sabine’s part. Is there something with my milk right now that she is not loving? The infected boob has cleared up so I know it is not a “boob cheese” issue. I have so many questions and am finding very little help.
I want so badly to write positively about breastfeeding and to keep my obsessive compulsive behaviors away from it, but I can’t. This is how I’m hard-wired. I’m a chart keeping, schedule abiding lady and breastfeeding is NOT fitting into that! So I’m turning to you guys. What is your breastfeeding/sleeping schedule like with your little ones? Particularly around 6 weeks of age. Do you have periods of less nursing followed by period of increased? How have your boobs held up to this? Do you add in more pumping?
And now it is time for me to roust sleeping beauty up for her “lunch” feed. Posting will likely continue to be sparse until we make it to NYC. Moving truck arrives a week from today so we are in the home stretch!! Wish us luck!