Sabine’s weekly update will be a day late this week.
Today is October 15, National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Today I spent some quiet time reflecting on my loss. I mentally retraced my steps during my Spiritual Walk to Remember last year when I let Pip go in the woods at Shaker Village and asked him to look over my still fresh pregnancy with Sabine. I held my sweet baby girl tight and thanked whoever is up there looking down on us for their compassion.
Shortly after I lost Pip I ordered a necklace for myself – a simple silver circle engraved with the words “Love Faith Hope.” I took it off only for Sabine’s birth, and only because I was having surgery and had to remove it. Sabine has started grabbing and holding things. Often when nursing she reaches up and entwines her fingers in the ring. Several women from our play group have seen this and remarked how cute, and I just smile and nod – it means so much more but I can’t find the words to share. And that, I think is ok.
Tonight I will light a candle for Pip and for all the babies who have left us too soon. I hope you will too. xoxo