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My Postpartum Body

10/17/2013

Belle

40 weeks pregnant and ready for the "Chicken" to join our family!

40 weeks pregnant and ready for the “Chicken” to join our family!

Before and during pregnancy I dreaded writing this post. Postpartum, though, I’ve been looking forward to it. I don’t even dread the selfie I’m about to take. In fact, I’m proud of my progress and I’m proud of the permanent changes to my body since having Sabine.

15 weeks postpartum

15 weeks postpartum – terrible photos! Sorry, it was too much effort to drag out the camera and find my tripod… Hilariously, upon posting these photos I found my tripod… back behind me in the picture! Oh man, see what sleep deprivation does to you? 🙂 AND I realize now just how badly I need a haircut! 

After a lifetime of struggling with some really unhealthy body issues, I am happy with what I see in the mirror. My belly is soft and pouches out a bit still. My hips are a little wider than before. My waist is no where near what it was, but I don’t hate it. My pre-pregnancy pants fit, although I look a little different in them, and most of my skirts fit.  I am at my pre-pregnancy weight (not pre IVF or pre miscarriage weight). I accomplished this by 3 months postpartum with daily walks and healthy eating. Not obsessive eating. Not unhealthy starvation. But healthy choices and allowing myself to indulge in things like New York bagels and bread (dear God the bread here is amazing).

I feel this surprising sense of pride for my soft tummy and c-section scar. I waited YEARS to have this. Well, not to have a slice-and-dice scar, but you know what I mean. Having the reminder each morning that I made this beautiful child who fills my days with light, laugher and some grey hairs is priceless. For the first time in my life I undress in front of a mirror and I don’t beat myself up. This is the new Belle body – this body is strong, it is capable, it nurtured and continues to feed the child I dreamed of and fought for.

I love this body and the visual reminders of what it has brought me – new life.

 

 

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  1. October 17, 2013

    Love love love. I love everything about this post. Way to rock it, Mama.

  2. October 17, 2013

    You look amazing, Mummy. Keep it up!

  3. October 17, 2013

    Good for you! I’m so happy that you’re happy with your body! That is important, and so hard to accomplish!

  4. mylifeisaboutthejourney #
    October 17, 2013

    I really wish that I could have your great attitude about this topic. :-\ I should look at my PP body and be thankful like you, but I don’t feel like I am. I am still pi$$ed that my huge belly gave me an ab separation (thus the flabby belly) and that I had to have a c-section. I still get sad when I look in the mirror and see what is there now compared to what was there before. I feel so ungrateful. You have inspired me to change my way of thinking because you are so right, I have a lovely baby boy as a result and those are my battle wounds that I worked so hard for. Two years ago I would have cut off my right arm if they told me it would result in a healthy baby! Thanks again for being so open and sharing. As usual you have created a spark for which to help me change my attitude! 🙂

  5. October 17, 2013

    What a beautiful perspective!!!! I hope that 1. My pregnancy continues to thrive so I get to the post partum part, and 2. That I too can handle the changes to my once 25 inch waste and flat tummy with such graciousness!!! Sabine is lucky to have a wonderful, self-aware mommy like you.

  6. Shinara #
    October 17, 2013

    My baby loves to sit on my poochy pooch. It’s perfect for those burping sessions.

  7. October 17, 2013

    Wonderful post! I wish every new mom could read this. I, too, found a new appreciation for my body after giving birth to my first child. I even developed an affection for my stretch marks…I called them my badge of honor. I’m so glad you’re able to have such a great perspective about your postpartum body, Belle. And by the way…you look FANTASTIC!

  8. October 17, 2013

    Beautiful post. I’ve got happy tears in my eyes.
    For the most part, I am happy with my postpartum body, but sometimes doubt and unhappiness creep in. I do look at my laproscopy scars without bitterness and hatred these days. When I first had the surgery and nothing happened soonish afterward, I hated the scars each time I looked at them. Now that I’ve got my boy, the scars are just a part of the long journey.
    Thank you, Belle!

  9. nonsequiturchica #
    October 17, 2013

    You look fantastic lady! Hopefully I look half as good after my C-section next month. BTW, how is everything with your incision?

  10. October 17, 2013

    love your post! great attitude!

  11. Kathy #
    October 17, 2013

    You look fantastic ! Glad you’ve learned to love your body. Women’s bodies are so amazing when you think about it. It is all worth it in the end.

  12. October 17, 2013

    If I lift my shirt to show my belly button, both babies will come climbing on my soft belly and poke me and play with my chub. It’s cute. hahaha

    • October 18, 2013

      Oh, yes, I forgot. Paxlet loves to poke at our tummies, but especially mine. It is cute!

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